Why do I keep thinking so low of myself when I am around the one person I love?
I love my boyfriend deeply. (I am 20, so please do not tell me that I do not tell me I am to young to be in love)
However, I keep getting extremely depressed because I keep thinking that he is too good for me, and that he can do better than me.
He is a member of Mensa for one. (something for the people with the top IQ..) and is going to become a math professor, graduating a year early with a almost perfect gpa. He also plays hockey and golf.
Me? I am simply only a criminal justice major in college who is behind on credits because I had to take the non credit math (I am horrible at it) with a minor in psychology. (I am rather pathetic.. I want to help others but I cant even help my self through this situation.) with only a 3.0 out of a possible 4.0
I have talked to my boyfriend about this several times, but nothing he says changes how I feel about myself. I still keep thinking he can do better. The thing is, everyone i talk to about him says " Wow! what is he doing dating you!?" which hurts a lot more than people mean it to.
Here's another thing: I am his first girlfriend (He is going to be 21) He said he never really found interest in any girl before. I met him on a dating site..
So I am afraid that we are not going to work out because I am his very first girlfriend (Even though he says he loves me from the bottom of his heart, and someday hopes to spend the rest of his life with me)
Please help.. I am driving myself insane. I love him more than anything and I don't want to loose him because of these feelings I have.